Keeping it Simple
© The A.A.
Grapevine, Inc. - Date unknown
I came to AA, I centered my life around intellectual accomplishments
and analytic thinking. You name it - I analyzed it! My
favorite topics included; (1) me, myself and I; (2) me
and my relationships with other people; and (3) me vs.
Society and its injustices. You can see the common theme:
me. I spent my days in morbid selfpreoccupation, until
the negative thinking and self-centered fear became so
unbearable that I drank myself into alcoholic oblivion.
I came to AA, my brain was so soggy that I welcomed the
invitation to “bring the body - the mind will follow”
with a sigh of relief. For once, I was permitted, even
encouraged, to leave my intellectual faculties at the
door. I was so physically, mentally, and spiritually sick
that I gladly complied.
after a year of experiencing the healing power of AA,
my Higher Power, and sobriety, I returned to work and
immediately began to live out of my head again. I became
obsessed with the idea that I became obsessed with the
idea that I could think my way into good living, that
I could master life merely by thinking my way through
it. Consequently, I began to withdraw from people, escape
into a sea of psychologically oriented textbooks, and
slip back into my old ways of thinking. I was trying to
figure out life instead of living it. At this point, my
sponsor suggested that I close all my books (except AA
literature) and start to live my way into good thinking.
I listened. Almost immediately, I felt relief and peace
s a doctoral candidate in the field o f psycholog y, I
have s p e n t most o f my adult life theorizing, conceptualizing,
analyzing, and evaluating. As a result, Imade simple issues
complex, got lost in the overwhelming complexities I had
created, and then drank to turn off the unceasing noise
in my mind.
am happy to say that after two years of sobriety, I am
no longer tortured by the wheels spinning in my brain.
One day at a time,AAhas relieved me from that terrible
bondage of self-analysis. Introspection is no longer an
obsession, and God has replaced psychology as my higher
power. The Twelve Steps have helped me learn how to keep
my life, both personal and professional, simple. AA has
taught me to “utilize, not analyze.” To live
life instead of thinking about it, and to put faith in
my Higher Power, not in my ownmind.
and my Higher Power have transformed me from a complex
person who lived out of her head to a simple person who
is trying to live out of her heart. Thanks to this program,
I am no longer a prisoner locked within the walls of my
mind. Now that I amno longer morbidly preoccupied with
self, I can reach out to others and contribute to life.
For this miracle, I am humbly grateful.